The Flight from God

                           

​“I fled Him, down the nights and down the days; I fled Him, down the arches of the years;

I fled Him, down the labyrinthine ways

Of my own mind; and in the midst of tears

I hid from Him, and under running laughter.”

— Francis Thompson, The Hound of Heaven

Francis Thompson’s masterful poem, "The Hound of Heaven," is the ultimate literary expression of humanity's flight from God. The speaker runs ceaselessly from the divine presence—fleeing through time, through their own complex thoughts, and into fleeting worldly pleasures like ambition, love, and childhood innocence.

​He attempts to find happiness and safety everywhere except in the arms of the Pursuer. But no matter where he turns, he hears the relentless, echoing footsteps and the calm, insistent voice of the Divine Lover, a voice that calls out the heartbreaking truth: "All things betray thee, who betrayest Me."

​This desperate flight and the subsequent emptiness are the necessary prerequisites for understanding the depth of God's love, the love that is not content to let us be miserable in our self-made freedom.

​The Waiting Pursuit

​This is where the ancient wisdom of Isaiah 30:18 provides the beautiful answer to the poem's tension - "And therefore will Jehovah wait, that he may be gracious unto you; and therefore will he be exalted, that he may have mercy upon you: for Jehovah is a God of justice; blessed are all they that wait for him".

​The people of Judah, like the poem’s speaker, were running away—fleeing God's counsel and seeking help from Egypt instead of resting in His strength. They were choosing the labyrinthine ways of their own minds over the quietness and confidence God offered (Isaiah 30:15).

​But then comes the astonishing reversal: “Yet the Lord longs to be gracious to you; therefore he will rise up to show you compassion.”

​The "Hound of Heaven" is not a furious hunter, but a Patient Parent. The chasing is not done in anger, but in longing. The text says the Lord waits to be gracious.

• ​He waits for our self-reliance to crumble.

• ​He waits for the finite pleasures we pursue to turn to dust in our hands.

• ​He waits for us to exhaust our flight down the "nights and down the days."

​The moment we stop running, we don't find a condemning Judge; we find a compassionate Father who has been longing for us to turn around.

​The Peace in Surrender

​The verse concludes, “blessed are all who wait for him!”

​To "wait" for the Lord here means more than simply being patient; it means to stop running and to confidently rely on Him and Him alone. It is the moment the exhausted runner in the poem finally collapses, only to realize the pursuing footsteps halt right beside him, and the voice speaks a promise of final peace.

​The persistent love of the Hound of Heaven is not designed to terrify us, but to drive us to the only place where true rest exists: His presence.

Soon we will celebrate Christmas. What is it all about? We should realize it's all part of God pursuing us, to the extent of sending His Son, to endure pain, torture and human death, in the pursuit of our rescue. In the excitement of celebrations let us not forget that.

​Today, let's stop running. Consider what parts of our life we are currently using as a hiding place from God’s complete authority or intimate presence (e.g., control, busy-ness, self-sufficiency, ambition).

The Blue Collared Prophet

                                             

On this second Sunday of Advent, we light the second purple candle on the wreath—the Bethlehem Candle. While the first week focused on hope, this week turns our hearts toward Peace.

But today, we want to take a different view of "Peace". A view which was stated by Micah the prophet. Micah was known as the "blue-collar prophet" because, unlike Isaiah, who was an advisor in the royal courts, Micah came from a small, rural town called Moresheth. Yet he stated one of the most profound messages - found in Micah Chapter 5 verse 5 -

The verse explicitly states:

​"And he shall be their peace." (ESV)

While verse 2 is the famous prophecy about Jesus being born in Bethlehem, it is verse 5 that reveals the nature of His leadership. Here is why this specific line is so powerful for the second Sunday of Advent:

​1. Peace is a Person, Not a Policy

​Micah doesn't say that the Messiah will negotiate peace or bring peace like a politician. He says the Messiah will be our peace. In the original Hebrew, this implies that His very presence constitutes the state of peace (Shalom). When He arrives, peace arrives because they are one and the same.

​2. Peace in the Midst of the "Assyrian"

​The context of Micah 5:5 is wartime. Micah says, "And he shall be their peace when the Assyrian comes into our land..." At the time, Assyria was the terrifying superpower threatening to destroy Judah.

​The radical point Micah is making is that divine peace does not require the absence of an enemy. You can have the "Assyrian" (which can be your illness, your debt, your anxiety etc.,) marching through your heart and mind, and yet, because of the Messiah, you can still possess a peace that the enemy  cannot touch.

​3. The Bridge to the New Testament

​This specific Old Testament verse is the direct "ancestor" to the famous New Testament claim in Ephesians 2:14:

​"For he himself is our peace, who has made us both one and has broken down in his flesh the dividing wall of hostility."

When you light the candle of peace this Sunday, you are celebrating the fact that Jesus didn't just come to give us a "quiet feeling"—He came to be the fortress that stands between us and the chaos of the world.

Most of us wait for our circumstances to settle down so we can finally have peace. Micah 5:5 tells us the opposite: Peace has a name, and He stands firm even when the land is under siege. You don't have to wait for the war to end to be at peace; you only have to invite the Prince in.

The Door of Uncertainty

"It is the Lord who goes before you; He will be with you. He will not fail you or abandon you. Do not fear or be dismayed."

When we face difficult situations in life, it is easy to feel overwhelmed and alone. we fear the unknown. However, as believers, we can take comfort in the truth of the quoted verse which reminds us that the Lord goes before us.

But what does it mean for the Lord to go before us? It is in fact a promise of divine preparation, presence, and protection. It’s a call to courage: step forward in faith, because wherever you are going, God is already there. And Because God goes before us, we are told: “Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged.” 

Fear often comes from uncertainty, but this verse assures us that the future is already in God’s hands. 

Yet, there’s a deeper, more radical truth here: it means God is not bound by time the way we are. While we stand trembling at the threshold of “uncertainty,” He already inhabits both our future and our present. The battles we fear tomorrow are victories He has already secured. The doors we hesitate to open are rooms He has already furnished with grace. This verse is not just about guidance—it’s about God’s timeless sovereignty, reminding us that we are never walking into the unknown; we are stepping into a reality where God has already written redemption into the script. So, when we walk through the door of uncertainty, we are not entering risk—we are entering fulfillment, because the Author of time Himself has gone ahead to ensure that our story bends toward His promise.

Therefore, the future we fear is already filled with His presence, His preparation, and His power. He is already there, on the other side of the door, waiting to hand hold us.  The battles we dread, the uncertainties that paralyze us, and the doors we cannot yet see—He has already walked through them, arranging victory and provision. This means every step into the unknown is not a leap into emptiness but a stride into territory where God Himself is waiting. Courage is not found in our strength but in the unshakable truth that the Lord who leads us will never leave us, never forsake us, and never fail us. Therefore, fear has no authority, discouragement has no dominion, and hope becomes the anthem of every new beginning. 

When we walk through that door of “Uncertainty”, we are not stepping into chaos but into a space already ordered by God’s hand. The unknown is not a void—it is a room He has furnished with grace, a path He has cleared with purpose, and a future He has secured with His promises. What feels like risk to us is already redemption in His plan. So when fear whispers that we are unprepared, faith declares that the Lord Himself has gone before us, and courage rises because we are walking into a tomorrow where God is already waiting.  

The Key Lesson for Us Today is to take Courage in uncertainty by building our Faith & Trust in His promises. 

Temptation: Pastor Rajiv's Mid-Week Message

 

The Prophet’s Candle

The people walking in darkness have seen a great light; on those living in the land of deep darkness a light has dawned.

All church going Christians must be familiar with the four pillars of Advent which started yesterday. These pillars of hope, peace, joy and love, reflect some of the virtues of our Christ, because they summarize the core spiritual gifts and promise brought into the world by the birth of Jesus Christ.

Also known as the “prophecy candle,” the candle of hope for Advent assures us we can have hope that God will fulfill the prophecies declared in the Old Testament about Jesus. Hope doesn’t disappoint us (Romans 5:5).

So today, we will talk about "hope". What is hope and how does it relate to Christ.

Hope is inherent to humans. When we sleep, we hope we will wake up the next morning. Every baby born is hope for a family. Everything we do is with a hope that there will be an expected end.

Jesus gives life to that hope. Hopelessness is not part of Gods plan. Even as you read this, you are living a hope - whether you acknowledge it or not.

Hope is not in the distant future. Hope is here and now. For example - When a person is sick and suffering he or she can hope for a Cure or Full Recovery (The big goal) and a Good Quality of Life Today (The small, achievable goal).

If you are looking at change or a shift in your life - in the longer perspective you want Control Over the Future. In the shorter term

Acceptance and New Meaning (The "new normal") of the present.

​Hope is not denying the dark night but choosing to light the small candle and affirm the Light that is promised to return. Therefore, 

• ​Hope is not denial; it is trust. We trust that even when our bodies fail, His love does not.

• ​Hope is not ease; it is endurance. That He Grant us the strength to face the next treatment, the next difficult day, and the next moment with courage, knowing He is our refuge.

• ​Hope is not control; it is surrender. Help us surrender our fear and anxiety into His hands, believing that His plan holds profound meaning, even if we cannot see it now.

Second, who needs hope? Why does the Bible give it so much importance?

The biblical call to hope is not about wishful thinking; it's about confident expectation based on God’s proven track record. The prophecies of the Old Testament, like the one from Isaiah, were written during times of national defeat, exile, and despair—true hopelessness.

​God’s message through the prophets was this: Your current suffering is not the final word. It still is not.  

​This Advent, the candle of Hope reminds us that:

• ​God sees our darkness. He doesn't minimize our pain, grief, or struggle, but gives us the strength to bear it till we receive our blessing. Our problem and pain get dwarfed by His power. Isaiah says the people were walking in "deep darkness"—a profound, overwhelming shadow.

• ​The Light is not accidental. The Light (Christ) was promised centuries before He arrived. This means your current despair, if you are feeling it, is temporary because God has a pre-planned, guaranteed solution that is already set in motion.

• ​Hope is anchored in history. We light this first candle because the promise was kept in a manger in Bethlehem. If God kept the promise to Israel after centuries of waiting, He will certainly keep His promises to you today. Think about your own blessings in the past. Unexplained good incidents; unsought blessings. God has your back. 

​Our hope is not dependent on our circumstances changing, but on God’s unchanging nature and His promise to make all things new.

As you look at the first candle, acknowledge the areas of your life that feel heavy, dark, or hopeless. Name the burdens, talk to God about them. Name them. 

This week, practice choosing to hope over despair, through action:

• ​Daily Focus: Every morning, identify one prophecy fulfilled by Jesus (like those found in Isaiah 7, 9, or Micah 5). Write it down and use it as a reminder: "He did this, so He will do that." At the same time recall one good thing that happened to you. 

• ​Light in the Darkness: When you feel overwhelmed by hopelessness, physically light a candle (the Advent candle, if available) and pray the prayer of Isaiah 9:2 over your situation. Let the flame represent the promised, faithful presence of Christ.

The Divine Exchange

Life in a fallen world inevitably brings moments of fear, uncertainty, and distress. We often find ourselves weighed down by the "what-ifs," the looming deadlines, the health concerns, or the relational tensions that steal our joy and peace. 

This constant undercurrent of worry is what the Bible calls anxiety. It's a heavy, oppressive burden that can make us feel isolated and exhausted. Anxiety creeps in when we try to control what we were never meant to carry.

​The Apostle Peter, who certainly knew a thing or two about intense pressure and failure, acknowledges this burden and offers a profound solution:

​"Casting all your anxieties on him, because he cares for you."

— 1 Peter 5:7 (ESV)

​This verse gives us a clear instruction and a deep promise. The instruction is to cast—an active, definitive movement, like throwing a heavy net off your shoulder. The promise is the reason why we can do this: He cares for you.

​In fact, Paul too said - 

"Be careful for nothing; but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God". Philippians 4:6 (KJV)

Paul reminds us that instead of being anxious, we’re called to pray. Not once in a while—but in everything.

Why? Because Prayer is the exchange. You give God your worry and He gives you His peace. You give Him your burden and He gives you strength. 

The enemy loves an anxious heart, but peace guards the heart that trusts in Christ. Today, release what’s weighing you down. Turn your stress into supplication. Don’t carry what grace has already covered.

Prayer is not simply reciting a wish list; it is the mechanism by which we make the divine exchange. We hand over the heavy, crushing weight of our anxiety, and in return, God gives us His supernatural, unwavering peace.

​​Notice the distinct steps:

​Acknowledge: Don't suppress the anxiety. Bring "everything"—the big things and the small things—into God's presence.

​Pray with Thanksgiving: Even amidst the worry, we can be thankful for who God is, His past faithfulness, and His ultimate control. This perspective shifts the focus from the problem to the Provider.

​The Result: A Guarded Heart: The response is not just the absence of worry, but the presence of "the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding." This peace acts as a divine sentinel, a guard posted over your heart (your feelings) and your mind (your thoughts) in Christ Jesus.

​A Peace that Surpasses Understanding

​This peace is not dependent on your circumstances changing. You don't get peace after the problem is solved; you get peace while you are walking through the problem. This is why it "surpasses all understanding"—it doesn't make logical sense to the anxious, worried world.

​The moment you deliberately articulate your fear to God and choose to trust Him with the outcome; you are engaging in this divine exchange. You are swapping a heavy, self-focused burden for a light, God-centered peace.

In a moment of prayer, picture yourself deliberately handing that specific burden over to God. Ask Him to replace that fear with the incomprehensible peace of Jesus.

Maybe you can pray like this - 

​"Heavenly Father, I confess that I often carry burdens that are too heavy for me. I am anxious, and I need your peace. Today, I actively cast [Name your specific anxiety] onto you, believing that you care for me. Thank you that I don’t have to understand the outcome to have your peace. Let your peace, which guards my heart and mind in Christ Jesus, flood my soul. Amen."

​Is there a specific area of your life you'd like to pray about right now? Don't wait. Exchange it! 

The Gentle Shepherd

"The Lord is my Shepherd, I shall not want..."

Look at this picture. 

Do you find anything wrong with it? Probably not. This is how we picture Jesus as our shepherd, right?

Well wrong. This picture is one sided.

The fact is -

In the ancient Near Eastern reality, a shepherd was very different.

​The Hebrew for shepherd is the word Ro'eh, which literally means a "feeder" or "tender."

​However, the detailed meaning is much more nuanced. The role of a shepherd absolutely necessitated the heart and skills of a warrior.

​In the ancient Hebrew context, you could not be a "good shepherd" without also being a fierce fighter. A warrior protector AND a provider and guide.

​Here is the breakdown of why the connotation of "warrior-protector" is embedded in the concept of Ro'eh:

​1. The Hostile Environment

​Our modern image of shepherding often involves rolling green, fenced pastures where sheep are relatively safe.

​In the ancient Levant (Israel), shepherding was done in the wilderness. The terrain was rugged, arid, and dangerous. A shepherd was leading defenseless animals through territories occupied by:

• ​Apex Predators: Lions, Asiatic bears, wolves, and leopards were common threats in biblical times.

• ​Human Threats: Bandits, raiders, and thieves who would try to steal the flock for food or wealth.

​A shepherd who was pacifist or cowardly would lose their flock very quickly.

​2. The Tools of the Trade: The Rod

​The famous phrasing in Psalm 23 mentions the shepherd’s two primary tools: "Thy rod and thy staff they comfort me."

• ​The Staff (Mish'enet): This was the long, crooked stick used for guidance, leaning on while walking, and gently hooking a sheep to pull it away from a cliff edge. This is the peaceful tool.

• ​The Rod (Shevet): This was distinctly a weapon. It was a short, heavy wooden club, sometimes tipped with metal or flint, worn at the belt. It was used to beat back brush, but primarily, it was used to bash in the skulls of attacking predators or thieves.

​When David says God’s rod "comforts" him, he means it is comforting to know that his Shepherd can protect him from any kind of an enemy. 

​3. The Biblical Prototype: David

​The best evidence for the "warrior" connotation is found in David, the archetypal shepherd-king.

​Before David fought Goliath, King Saul dismissed him as just a boy. David’s defense of his ability to fight a giant warrior was based entirely on his experience as a shepherd:

​"But David said to Saul, 'Your servant has been keeping his father’s sheep. When a lion or a bear came and carried off a sheep from the flock, I went after it, struck it and rescued the sheep from its mouth. When it turned on me, I seized it by its hair, struck it and killed it. Your servant has killed both the lion and the bear; this uncircumcised Philistine will be like one of them...'" (1 Samuel 17:34-36, NIV)

​In Hebrew thought, David did not become a warrior after he left the sheepfolds. He became a warrior because he was in the sheepfolds. The wilderness was his boot camp.

​Summary: The Defensive Warrior

​The Hebrew connotation of Ro'eh is not an offensive warrior—a soldier who goes out to conquer new territory.

​Rather, it connotes a fierce, defensive warrior.

​The Ro'eh is motivated by deep care and possessiveness over the flock. The shepherd prefers peace and grazing, but if anything threatens what they love, they instantly shift into a violent, protective mode.

​So, while Ro'eh means "tender companion," the ancient context demands that this companion also be ready to fight to the death to protect their charge. And which He did. 

Now, when we change that mental picture of our Shepherd in our minds, does not the reality of the Psalms and other verses of the Bible truly come alive? Do not His promises of protection and provision become a reality? Does not the Bible and His word become our truth?

Radio Silence

In our day today life, many times we face radio silence from people - in emails or questions or any issue we may want resolved. And when we do its usually because -

A. We are not important enough

B. The other person has no answer

C. It may not be their priority.

But what happens when the Signal is Lost with God? How do we go about finding God in the Silence

​"My God, my God, why have you forsaken me? Why are you so far from saving me, so far from my cries of anguish?" - Psalm 22:1

​Have you ever felt like you’re shouting into a void? Like you’re tuning your spiritual radio, searching desperately for the familiar frequency of God’s presence, but all you get is static—or worse, total radio silence? That is one of the most difficult seasons of faith. We pray, we read, we wait, but the heavens seem brass, and the sense of divine nearness is gone.

​If you are currently experiencing this profound quiet, you are in good company. The Bible is full of saints who felt abandoned, from Job to the psalmists, and most profoundly, Jesus Christ himself on the cross. It’s important to understand that the feeling of distance does not necessarily mean God is absent.

​What can be the Purpose of the Pause? ​Why does God sometimes go quiet? While we can never know His full, mysterious will, the silence often serves a few key purposes in our spiritual growth:

​1. To Deepen Our Trust (Moving from Sensation to Faith): When God’s presence is emotionally overwhelming and visible, faith is easy. But true, resilient faith is built in the wilderness. The silence forces us to rely not on our feelings, but on the immutable facts of God's character: He is good, He is faithful, and He keeps His promises. We learn to trust the Promise-Giver even when we can’t perceive the Presence.

​2. To Cultivate Maturity (Learning to Search): When a child calls out, a parent often answers immediately. When a young adult is learning independence, the parent might wait, allowing them to solve the problem themselves. Silence encourages us to stop passively receiving and start actively seeking. It forces us into a deeper, more intentional study of Scripture and a more honest examination of our own hearts.

​3. To Prepare Us for the Next Assignment: Sometimes, the silence is simply a necessary time of rest and recalibration before a major spiritual breakthrough or a difficult mission. Think of the intense quiet before a massive storm, or the stillness required before a difficult operation. This pause allows us to be emptied of our noise and filled with His readiness.

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​When the silence is overwhelming, here are three anchors to hold onto:

• ​Re-read the History: Go back to the moments in your life where you know God showed up. Write them down. These are your Ebenezers—stones of remembrance that testify to His enduring faithfulness. Your past proves His future reliability.

• ​Focus on the Cross: The silence you feel now is nothing compared to the cosmic abandonment Jesus experienced when He cried out, "My God, why have you forsaken me?" He did that so that when we walk through the shadow of silence, we never walk through it truly alone. He has been there.

• ​Worship Anyway: Worship is not a mood enhancer; it’s an act of will. It’s declaring God’s goodness before the answer arrives, before the signal comes back. Worship in the waiting shifts your focus from your lack of feeling to God’s enduring majesty.

​The absence of a signal doesn't mean the station has shut down. God speaks best in the quiet, and He never abandons His post.

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Surviving The Fire

​2 Corinthians 1:3-4 (God of all comfort) 

​“Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies and God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our affliction, so that we may be able to comfort those who are in any affliction, with the comfort with which we ourselves are comforted by God.”

2 Corinthians 1:3–4 reveals a core pattern of comfort and purpose in the Christian life: that God not only consoles us in our suffering, but equips us to become vessels of comfort for others. Paul writes that the Father of mercies and the God of all comfort “comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves receive from God.” This divine cycle transforms personal pain into communal healing, reminding believers that their trials are never wasted—they are redeemed into ministry, empathy, and hope.

​The Apostle Paul, who wrote these words, was no stranger to hardship. He faced shipwrecks, imprisonment, hunger, and persecution. Yet, he doesn't begin his letter with a complaint; he begins with a profound blessing to God, whom he calls the "God of all comfort."

​This passage reveals a powerful, two-step process in how God addresses our suffering:

​Step 1: God’s Presence in Your Pain (Verse 4a)

God is not distant when we are hurting. He doesn't wait for the affliction to end before stepping in. He is the one “who comforts us in all our affliction.” This comfort is not necessarily the immediate removal of the pain, but the awareness of His presence, the peace that transcends understanding, and the strength to endure. When we are afflicted, we are drawn into a unique intimacy with Him, relying on Him entirely because our own strength has failed. He knows exactly what we are going through, and He meets us there, pouring His mercy into our deepest wounds.

​Step 2: The Purpose of Your Comfort (Verse 4b)

This is the most remarkable part of the passage: God’s comfort is never meant to stop with us. It’s given “so that we may be able to comfort those who are in any affliction.” Your struggle is not wasted. The deep compassion and understanding you gain from enduring your own trial becomes the precise tool you use to help someone else later. The comfort you received from God acts as a sacred relay baton. When you sit with a friend going through a hardship, you don't offer them textbook advice; you offer them the authentic, grace-filled comfort that was first given to you.

​The pain you feel is real, but it is also a preparation. It is forging within you a profound empathy, transforming you from a person who simply endured suffering into a compassionate source of solace for others. 

When you have survived the fire, you become a light for those still walking through the flames.

Unseen Battles

“For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms.”

— Ephesians 6:12 (NIV)

We often hear people wonder - why do good people suffer bad things? 

​We often view our struggles—the anxiety, the sharp temptation, the persistent doubt, the relational friction—as purely internal or interpersonal problems. We fight against a bad mood, a difficult colleague, or a personal failure. But the Apostle Paul pulls back the curtain on reality, revealing that these surface battles are often just symptoms of a deeper, unseen warfare.

​You are a soldier in a spiritual war, whether you feel like one or not. The true enemy is not the person who angered you, nor is it the circumstance that caused you distress. The real enemy is the spiritual forces that seek to distract you, discourage you, and ultimately dismantle your faith. The target is your faith and the way is through your fear and temptation. 

​This truth is both sobering and empowering. Why? 

• ​Sobering: It reminds us that there is a strategic, intelligent foe actively working against our peace and purpose.

• ​Empowering: It shifts our focus from fighting symptoms to fighting the source. When you realize the battle is spiritual, you stop using fleshly weapons (anger, gossip, self-pity) and start using the only effective tools: spiritual weapons.

​Three Strategies for Spiritual Victory

​1. Know Your Enemy’s Strategy (The Lie)

​The primary weapon of the enemy is deception. He tries to make you believe lies about God, lies about yourself, and lies about your situation.

• ​Lies about God: "God isn't good. He has forgotten you. Your sin is too great for His grace."

• ​Lies about you: "You are worthless. You will never change. You are too weak to fight."

​Your Defense: The Truth of God's Word. When you are tempted to believe a lie, speak a corresponding truth. If you feel forgotten, recall: "The Lord himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you" (Deuteronomy 31:8).

​2. Put on the Full Armor (Ephesians 6:13-17)

​Paul is insistent: we must be fully equipped. The armor is not optional; it is the provision Christ has given you for protection.

3. Fight from a Position of Victory (Intercession)

​Crucially, you are not fighting for victory; you are fighting from the victory already secured by Jesus Christ on the cross. Your power does not come from your strength, but from His.

​Paul concludes the armor passage with a call to prayer for all the saints (Ephesians 6:18). Intercession is how we deploy the spiritual weapons. When you pray, you are inviting the power of God into the unseen battle, and no spiritual force can stand against Him.

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Think about this: 

• ​What "flesh and blood" struggle in your life right now might actually be a symptom of a deeper spiritual battle?

• ​Which piece of the spiritual armor do you feel you need to intentionally "put on" today?

​Prayer

​Heavenly Father, thank You for opening my eyes to the reality of the spiritual war. Forgive me for trying to fight my battles in my own strength. I put on the full armor of God today. I take up the Shield of Faith to guard against the lies of the enemy, and I wield the Sword of the Spirit, which is Your Word. Strengthen me to stand firm in the victory Christ has already won, and help me to pray ceaselessly for others who are in the fight. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.

Standing on The Promises of God: Pastor Rajiv

 

Good Morning God!

Read Isiaah 44 6-8

I have a question today: if God was living with you or me, would we not say "Good morning" every day?

Francis Taylor points out certain truths viz our relationship with God. Commenting on the quoted passage she says -

"God is very definite in this passage from Isaiah. I am God and there is no other! I am the first and the last, the Alpha and the Omega, as is written in the book of Revelation. Since we declare that we believe this, why do we insist on having other gods? Anything or anyone we put before God, including ourselves, we are making gods. Putting God first, means giving up some of our control and obeying his rules, and living as God wants us to live. This isn't the first time this message has come before us this year, but it bears repeating and reflecting upon once again. Where do we place God on a scale of 1 – 10 in the course of our day? Is God in your thoughts when you wake up? How many times do you think about God during the day while driving, working, reading, watching television? What about at night? Is God the last thing you think about at night as you reflect upon your day? How many times during the day do you say "thank you" for getting those green lights, finding a parking place, having the meeting go well? Or maybe you need to thank God that the person running the red light didn't hit you? Tomorrow, try saying good morning to God and ask him to be with you during the day. Then, look for God in the people and events during the day. Tomorrow night, think about your day, recognize the places where God was present and then say "good night." Repeat."

Francis Taylor

What she is saying is that God should be integrated into all aspects of life, not relegated to a Sunday-only activity.

He thus becomes a lifestyle rather than an event. The encouragement to say "thank you" for daily mercies (green lights, parking spots, safety) is a call to practice mindfulness and gratitude, recognizing God's hand in both the mundane and the profound.

We need to move from theological statement to practical devotional exercise, which is its greatest strength.

Ms Taylor establishes a non-negotiable truth using direct biblical reference: "I am God and there is no other! I am the first and the last, the Alpha and the Omega." This declaration, pulling from both Isaiah and Revelation, emphasizes God's eternality and completeness. If this is true, it logically follows that nothing else can share that level of importance, not even ourselves, our jobs, our families or our possessions. Our pride lies in God, not in these things.

Making God and Jesus our lifestyle means transforming our faith from a belief system into a 24/7 reality. How can we do that?

• To start with, change morning routines. Before you check your phone or start your to-do list, offer a simple prayer: "Good morning, God. Be with me today and guide my steps."

• Focus on the Person of Jesus: The lifestyle isn't just about what you do; it's about becoming more like Christ. Study Jesus's life in the Gospels (Matthew, Mark, Luke, John) and focus on His humility, compassion, and priorities.

Integrate God into Daily Rhythms

​This moves God from being a "Sunday event" to a continuous presence.

• ​Communion through Prayer (The Constant Conversation):

• ​Scheduled Time: Set aside dedicated, quiet time (even 5-10 minutes) each day for prayer and devotion. Be consistent.

• ​Spontaneous Prayer: This is key to lifestyle—talking to God while driving, cooking, waiting in line, or before a difficult meeting. The quote's reference to saying "thank you" for a parking spot is a perfect example.

• ​Meditation on Scripture (The Daily Bread):

• ​Read for Transformation, not just Information: Instead of speed-reading, take one verse or a short passage. Read it slowly, meditate on what it means, and ask, "How should this change how I live today?"

• ​Practical Tip: Use a Bible app to keep a verse or thought on your phone's home screen for a few hours.

Make Your Work and Activities Worship

​Your job, your hobbies, and your errands are all opportunities to express your faith.

• ​Excellence and Integrity: Do your work, chores, or studies with excellence, as if you are working directly for God, not just your boss or teacher (Colossians 3:23). This means being honest, diligent, and helpful.

• ​Attitude and Humility: In traffic, in frustrating situations, or during conflicts, actively try to display the Fruit of the Spirit (love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self-control - Galatians 5:22-23). This is where the rubber meets the road.

• ​The "Other Gods" Check: As the quote asks, constantly evaluate our priorities. If our pursuit of comfort, money, approval, or pleasure causes us to neglect our spiritual life or compromise our values, that's where we need to surrender control.

Making God and Jesus your lifestyle is about cultivating an active awareness of His presence and consciously choosing His way over your own, moment by moment. It's a journey of forming small, consistent habits that slowly shift your heart's greatest desire.

Is God on Your Side?

The pages of the Old Testament are filled with the dramatic prayers and actions of the people of Israel as they faced enemies, famine, and disaster. Their cry was often: "O God, be on our side!" They longed for the Divine Warrior to march with their armies, to deliver them from their foes, and to bless their land. Much like you and I today. 

And, when they walked in obedience, God was indeed their protector and deliverer. When they strayed, the prophets brought God's stern but loving verdict, reminding the people of God's perspective and calling them back to covenant faithfulness.

​One powerful example of this dynamic is seen when the Israelites were about to take Jericho:

​“When Joshua was by Jericho, he lifted up his eyes and looked, and behold, a man was standing before him with his drawn sword in his hand. And Joshua went to him and said to him, ‘Are you for us, or for our adversaries?’ And he said, ‘No; but I am the commander of the army of the LORD. Now I have come.’ And Joshua fell on his face to the earth and worshiped and said to him, ‘What does my lord say to his servant?’ ”

​— Joshua 5:13–14 (ESV)

​The commander's answer, "No," is striking. He wasn't choosing sides; he was declaring that God's mission was the only side that mattered. Joshua's response was immediate humility and surrender. He stopped asking God to join his side and asked how he could join God’s.

​The New Covenant: The Question Is Settled

​With the coming of Jesus Christ, the question of whether God is "on our side" is definitively answered and fundamentally transformed.

​The Gospel reveals the ultimate, unwavering truth of God's heart toward humanity: He is absolutely, eternally, and completely on our side.

He did not wait for us to clean up our lives; He came while we were still lost. ​“But God shows his love for us in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us.” ​— Romans 5:8 (ESV)

He did not send a general or a prophet; He sent His own Son. ​“For God so loved the world, that he gave his only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish but have eternal life.” ​— John 3:16 (ESV)

​The very act of the Incarnation, the Cross, and the Resurrection is God’s decisive declaration of love and commitment to redeem humanity.

​The Apostle Paul drives this point home with powerful rhetoric:

​“What then shall we say to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us? He who did not spare his own Son but gave him up for us all, how will he not also with him graciously give us all things?”

​— Romans 8:31–32 (ESV)

​The New Challenge

​Because God has proven beyond all doubt that He is for us through Christ, the question shifts from a desperate plea to a deliberate choice. The ultimate battle is no longer for God's allegiance; it is for ours.

​The question is no longer: "Is God on our side?"

The question now is: "Are we on God's side?"

​This means:

Surrender: Are we willing to lay down our own plans and will, just as Joshua did, and ask, "What does my Lord say to his servant?"

Obedience: Are we actively seeking to live by Christ's teachings, aligning our values, actions, and priorities with His kingdom purposes? 

​“No one can serve two masters, for either he will hate the one and love the other, or he will be devoted to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve God and money.” ​— Matthew 6:24 (ESV) (This principle applies to all areas of allegiance, not just wealth).

Faith: Are we trusting in His completed work on the cross, making His perfect righteousness our ground for peace and hope, rather than relying on our own strength or goodness?

​A Final Thought

​Let us move past the anxious plea for God to join our cause and embrace the reality of the New Covenant: God has already committed Himself to us. Our task is to enthusiastically and obediently commit ourselves to His cause.

Besting Jesus? The Faith That Crossed Boundaries

Mark 7:25–29: A Story of Faith That Crossed Boundaries

We often think of Jesus as the perfect teacher—wise, compassionate, and purposeful in every word and action. In Mark 7, we witness a remarkable moment where a Gentile mother, unnamed but unforgettable, approaches Him with a plea born of deep love and desperation.

Her daughter was suffering, and she believed that Jesus could help. Despite being an outsider—a Syrophoenician woman, not part of the Jewish community to whom Jesus’s ministry was first directed—she came and fell at His feet, asking for healing.

Jesus responded with a statement that reflected the cultural and theological boundaries of the time:

"Let the children be fed first, for it is not fair to take the children’s bread and throw it to the dogs."

This phrase, though softened in its original language, would have been difficult to hear. Yet the woman did not retreat. With humility and insight, she replied:

"Lord, even the dogs under the table eat the children’s crumbs."

Her response was not defiant—it was faithful. She acknowledged the order of things yet trusted that even the overflow of God’s grace was enough to meet her need. Jesus affirmed her faith immediately:

"For saying that, you may go; the demon has left your daughter."

The Power of Persistent Faith

This story is not about Jesus being bested in an argument. It’s about a moment where faith pierced through cultural boundaries. Jesus’s response shows us that sincere, humble belief is always welcomed—and that God’s mercy is not limited by status, background, or tradition.

The Syrophoenician woman didn’t demand a place at the table. She simply trusted that the crumbs of grace were enough. And in that trust, she received the fullness of healing.

The Message for Us Today

When we feel distant, unheard, or unworthy, this story reminds us:

1. Faith that is humble, persistent, and trusting can move the heart of God.

2. No one is too far. No prayer is too small. And no boundary is too strong for the compassion of Christ.

When Everything is Lost

Much of the Old Testament is an historical account but most of it has practical application as a Christian even today. When we meditate on these OT accounts, there is so much to be learned which enhances our own relationship with God.

One such account is in 1 Samuel 30 - to be read as a complete chapter. It is a powerful account of leadership, faith, and recovery in a moment of intense crisis. The story of David and his men returning to find their town, Ziklag, burned and their families captured by the Amalekites offers several profound learning opportunities.

​Here are the key lessons we can derive from 1 Samuel 30:

​"But David was greatly distressed, for the people spoke of stoning him, because all the people were bitter in soul, each for his sons and his daughters. But David strengthened himself in the Lord his God."

​Imagine the scene: David and his men return home after a long journey only to find their city, Ziklag, reduced to ashes. Their wives, children, and possessions—everything they owned—had been carried off by the raiding Amalekites. Their grief was so overwhelming they wept until they could weep no more. To make matters worse, David’s own companions turned on him, placing the blame squarely on his shoulders and speaking of stoning their leader.

​It was a moment of absolute loss: physical possessions gone, family missing, leadership authority questioned, and his own life threatened. David was at his lowest point. He had every right to despair, blame others, or crumble under the pressure.

​Yet, David made a choice that changed everything. He still chose to depend on God. 

​The path David took from devastation to deliverance offers us a powerful blueprint for navigating our own darkest days.

​1. Strengthen Yourself in the Lord (The Anchor)

​When the world around you is collapsing, you must actively secure your anchor. David didn't look to his men, his wisdom, or his reputation for strength; he looked up. The key phrase is: "But David strengthened himself in the Lord his God" (1 Samuel 30:6). This teaches us that inner resilience and the ability to lead others come from deliberately clinging to and finding strength in one's relationship with God, even when facing the consequences of past compromises.

​Action Point: When you feel overwhelmed, stop trying to fix the problem immediately. Instead, deliberately turn your focus to God. Remind yourself of His past faithfulness, His unwavering promises, and His deep love for you. That inner choice to anchor your spirit in Him is the beginning of your recovery.

​2. Inquire of the Lord (The Compass)

​After finding strength, David didn't just rush out to chase the enemy. He sought specific direction using the ephod, asking, "Shall I pursue? Will I overtake?" God’s answer was clear: "Pursue, for you shall surely overtake them and shall surely rescue all."

​This highlights the importance of prayerful decision-making and obedience to the clear guidance received.

Action Point: Never let panic or emotion dictate your next move. When facing a major decision or a crisis, pause, pray, and seek God’s direction. Whether through Scripture, counsel, or prayer, wait for the clarity of His voice. Obedience to His plan, not yours, is the only guarantee of success.

​3. Extend Compassion (The Unexpected Blessing)

​Mid-pursuit, David’s men came upon an abandoned Egyptian slave. In the urgency of their mission, it would have been easy to leave him behind because he was an Egyptian (an enemy) and part of Amalekites. But they stopped and showed him kindness. That man, nourished and revived, became their essential informant, leading them straight to the sleeping enemy camp.

​Action Point: Even when you are deep in your own struggle, do not neglect opportunities for kindness. Compassion is never a distraction; it is often the very key God uses to open the door to your deliverance. When you serve others, God is working behind the scenes to serve your need.

4. Fair Distribution and Unity (Wise Leadership)

Good leadership involves both effective pursuit and wise, unifying distribution of success. No one should be left behind.

Two hundred of David's men were too exhausted to continue the pursuit and had to stay behind to guard the supplies at the Brook Besor. The men who fought argued that the 200 weary men deserved no share of the plunder.

The Action: David implemented a permanent law in Israel: "As is the share of him who goes down into the battle, so shall be the share of him who stays by the baggage; they shall share alike" (1 Samuel 30:24-25). This was an act of wise, compassionate leadership that prevented disunity and honored everyone's contribution to the effort.

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Conclusion: David Recovered All

​Because David strengthened his heart, sought God’s will, and acted with compassion, the narrative ends with one of the most triumphant phrases in the Old Testament: "David recovered all, and nothing of theirs was missing, whether small or great, sons or daughters, spoil or anything that they had taken for themselves" (1 Samuel 30:19).

​What has the enemy stolen from you? Is it your peace, your joy, your hope, or your sense of purpose? Take courage from David’s story. 

When you place your trust in God, He promises not just survival, but complete restoration. Strengthen yourself in Him today and watch Him lead you to recover all.

Is the Church Important? - Pastor Rajiv's Mid-Week Message

 

Godly Surrender

Read Mark 10:21 

Many a Sunday morning we stand up and sing the song - "All to Jesus I surrender". But do we truly mean that? Do we truly surrender all? 

In the quoted passage we have a near perfect young man, who did everything God expected but could not surrender.

Today let us think, have we truly surrendered? - what does surrender look like?

First and foremost, surrender needs us to let go of the control we want over our lives. Realize that that fantastic job, that promotion or a great business are not because of our abilities but because of Gods blessings. Therefore, they are not our priority even though they may give us economic power. It involves recognizing that one is not self-sufficient, and that divine grace is essential. And divine grace comes from divine wisdom.

It means letting go of the desire to dictate the course of one's life and trusting that God's plan is superior. It involves a profound act of yielding one's will and control to divine authority.

In practice this means that we become executors of Gods will in our lives rather than decision makers. It means we put every situation, every day, every problem, every solution, every honor at Gods feet first.

This is not to be confused with revering God or respecting God. There is a difference between respecting God and making Him first in our lives.

When we make God first, we may start our day by asking God - what would you have me do today? Or how do you want me to act in "x" situation? Essentially start the day by passing control of everything for the day to God.

Surrender therefore requires humility, acknowledging one's own limitations and dependence on God.

This may involve making changes in one's behavior, attitudes, and priorities to align with divine principles and a willingness to accept His authority.

In theory we all do that: in practice maybe we don't.

King David consulted God before taking any action. Do we consult God say, before a meeting? If the meeting is critical we may pray and ask for His guidance and help. But do we ask His will? No. We state our will and may we end it by saying - "but your will be done". That to my mind is not total surrender. It is "grudging acceptance or maybe defeated acceptance".  

Therefore, total surrender also includes an "embracement" of Gods decision, His wisdom and His will, with happiness, joy and priority because we place our trust in Him more than in our own abilities.

What is the outcome? Ultimately, surrender will bring inner peace and freedom. By relinquishing the burden of control, one can experience a sense of release and trust. It's like sitting in a chauffeur driven car and driven through chaotic traffic as opposed to driving and navigating that traffic ourselves.

Surrender therefore is good for us. It not only helps us navigate this life peacefully but helps to build our next life as well by building a relationship with God, with Jesus and with the Holy Spirit.

Finally, It is important to understand that surrender is often a process, and not a one time event. It is something that is worked on daily.

In essence, surrendering to Jesus or God is about placing one's life in divine hands, trusting in divine guidance, and seeking to live in accordance with divine will.

My Covid Diaries: A Nightmare turned Miracle!

Today we share a short diary of a Covid survivor – a senior lady in Delhi, India, who calls her experience “a nightmare turned miracle”. We share with you the Covid Diary of Ms. S. Massey, a retired School Principal, mother and grandmother. She credits ONLY God’s grace and mercy that she is able to share her story today – in her own words:

“9th May, 2021: 10 PM : Tested positive for Covid, asymptomatic. Being 70 years of age and an asthma patient, I was advised hospitalization. In spite of non availability of beds and oxygen, it was with God’s grace I was able to get an admission to a well known hospital. Tests showed about a 20% infection and treatment was started.

10th May, 2021: Slight improvement, but still asymptomatic.

11th May, 2021: Stable and ready to be discharged and to quarantine at home! Discharge procedure starts. My happiness knew no bounds and all friends, family, church people who had been praying for me heaved a sigh of relief and thanked God.

But, during the day my condition deteriorated and I was sent back into ICU. An emergency X-Ray of the lungs showed drastic worsening and my Oxygen level decreased to dangerous levels. People started [raying for me all over again, being informed and requested by my son.

As my condition worsened, I felt myself drift into a deep dark valley and as if I was slipping into another world. I lost the time and days and nights passed without any awareness. I had no consciousness, no sensation and no sound. I underwent a tricostmy surgery and lost the use of my vocal cords.

I must admit that I probably posed a huge challenge to the team of doctors, God bless them for not giving up on me and working under the direction of our Lord.

With no sense of what was going on, I do remember seeing my late husband, sitting on the highest seat of a stadium. I stretched out my arm asking him to hold me as I was gong to join him but he turned his face from me. I also saw my elder sister and brother in law walking head of me, so I called out to them as well to stop and wait for me but they don’t. (I did not know that both had already passed of Covid together). These memories haunt me even today.

I saw different churches, ones which I never knew even existed, new priests giving sermons from beautiful pulpits, reading scripture and choirs of people dressed in purple and white. Churches with different European architectures, including Greek and roman designs, stained glass windows. I also saw the baby Jesus in His manger, huge candles burning as group of angels sing and bow down with their wings covering their faces. The whole scene before me was pure, powerful and spiritual. The environment was filled with a blue hue, I have never seen in my life and I cannot explain the serene beauty of that place where I was.

Suddenly I saw water, as clear as crystal, gushing from a beautiful golden gate, guarded by two angels, and then I am standing in my home church behind the lectern, facing the cross and saying – Lord send me back as I have to preach Jesus – as the only God, the true god and a miracle God.

It was not a plea, or a begging tone but the tone and voice of a fighter, which later scared me as to how could I behave like that in front of God? From childhood I had been taught to petition God but not like this!

4th of August, 2021: Suddenly a strong beam of light emanated from that cross and engulfed me. My conscious date changed from the 11th of May to the 4th of August, 2021, the day God chose to send me back and the date I was finally discharged, after 3 months on a ventilator!

My weight had reduced from 68 Kg to 40 Kg, paralyzed below the waist, darkened skin and on a wheelchair. I was hardly able to speak.

I had my first review with the doctor one month later when he said – Ma’am you are a miracle. A Covid warrior. I wanted to tell him the warrior was not me but Jesus. I was only the medium to glorify His name.

While the Doctor put me on physio for 6 months, I was up in two months and able to walk in 3. God healed me to keep my promise – to glorify the name of Jesus.

Today, I keep that promise everyday – to witness, to pray for others who maybe going through a bad patch, to teach faith and trust.

I do hope my story will also strengthen you, and inspire you to Jesus Christ – our Saviour and Lord”.

Salvation is not an Event

 

Salvation is not a singular event, so we shouldn't treat it as such. It is an ongoing process that began at the cross and continues throughout our earthly lives, involving faith, repentance, and transformation. Lent plays an important role along the way.

Phil Ashey, pastor of South Riding Church in Virginia, observed, "Our culture is so focused on an event rather than a process. Even as evangelicals, I think we've been trapped by the idea that salvation is a one-time event, like a sale that we've got to close. But often, it's a process in which people ask questions again and again and approach God repeatedly to consider faith. I see Lent as a door—an entryway—for people to connect or reconnect with Jesus."

Engaging in this process means approaching God, understanding His will and power, and reflecting on our faith in Him. Lent offers a unique opportunity to dedicate time toward this reflection. Over these 40 days, we examine our lives, confront our baggage and sinfulness, and commit to change. It is a time for corrective actions that lead to spiritual regeneration, for salvation itself hinges on being reborn or transformed. This journey doesn't happen in an instant or even in a single season—it unfolds in steps. Lent provides the space to take these steps, whether by shedding harmful habits or cultivating new ones, while spending meaningful time with God.

For some, Lent may extend beyond the traditional 40 days and span an entire year, as they continually evaluate and strive to deepen their spiritual lives. For others, the concentrated period of Lent is vital. Regardless of timing, the effort and outcome matter most.

Above all, we must remember that Jesus sacrificed Himself for the salvation we seek. This process calls for sincerity, earnestness, and a wholehearted commitment to change.

A Life Turned Upside Down: Pastor Rajiv's Mid-Week Message

                                                                  

Since we are talking about Covid days this week, and you think Covid turned our lives upside down, well, think of this scenario:

A strange person appears before you, someone whom you have never seen before, stands before you in your room, and starts talking to you about your future - pretty freaky!! isn’t it?

Today I want us to wind back 2025 years and look at the life of a 16 year old Jewish teenager in Israel. This teenager had her life turned completely upside down by the visit of a stranger, in circumstances similar to what we mentioned.

We are first introduced to her by name in Matthew’s gospel but we are told of her by Isaiah in his prophecy ‘Therefore the Lord Himself will give you a sign: Behold, the virgin shall conceive and bear a Son, and shall call His name Immanuel’ - Isaiah 7:14

So here we have Mary a 16 year old teenager living the normal life of a 16 year old. The Bible does not specify anything about her life prior to Gabriel’s visit but I am sure we can picture the life of a 16 year old village girl living in those times.

She would be helping her mother in the kitchen, maybe taking care of younger siblings, if she had any, helping with the household chores and of course playing with other village girls her own age.

And, to complicate matters, she was pledged in marriage to Joseph the village carpenter, which seemed to be a normal practice in Jewish families. And now, into this ‘normal’ scenario enters the angel Gabriel, and turns Mary’s world upside down completely.

Not only that, the message that was given her must completely baffled her: “Do not be afraid, Mary; you have found favour with God. 31 You will conceive and give birth to a son, and you are to call him Jesus. 32 He will be great and will be called the Son of the Most High. The Lord God will give him the throne of his father David,33 and he will reign over Jacob’s descendants forever; his kingdom will never end.”

Imagine the enormity of that message and it’s effect on her: (And you thought Covid had turned you upside down?)

In her confused and fearful state of mind she was only able to manage the one question which was at the top of her mind. The passage says “how will this be,” Mary asked the angel, “since I am a virgin?”

Mary’s question would have arisen from the social and legal norms of that time. If she was found to be with child out of wedlock she would be branded an adulteress she could be stoned to death as per Jewish law

And what would Joseph her fiancée think?

The angel answered, “The Holy Spirit will come on you, and the power of the Most High will overshadow you. So the holy one to be born will be called the Son of God - Vs 35

Mary’s question was not a question of doubt but a question of faith. Because asking in faith is very different to asking in doubt. Gabriel’s message puzzled her but she did not dismiss it in unbelief.

Mary’s response at the end of the passage is a demonstration of her faith, her obedience and her complete submission to God’s will.

Mary’s response is what should be the response of every believer to God’s calling even though His calling will usually turn your world upside down, making life inconvenient and maybe even dangerous, as it did hers and as it did the apostles.

Mary’s calling was not an easy task that she had been called for as we read along the gospels and even beyond when we see Mary’s suffering and hardship which finally culminated in seeing her son dying a gruesome death on a Roman cross.

Mary demonstrated to us how we should respond when God calls us to do His work, in any circumstance. Think of all the health workers during Covid – who bravely took up their calling to help people. Like Mary they did not shirk or make excuses out of fear - But through it all, put aside all doubts and all questions and all insecurities and responded to the calling with faith.

Today it will be well for each of us to think: how will I respond to God’s calling? How will I react to my world being turned upside down? I may lose friends and family, or wealth or time etc. But what will my response be? Will we, like Mary, look on it in faith? Or look at it in doubt?